dont you just hate it when the one person who you love and care about the most in the whole world. Lies to you. Even if they arent huge lies. I know i hate it. Its probaly the worst thing someone could do to me. It makes you feel like they dont love you or care for you. And I know that isnt true I know he loves me with all his heart, but to tell you the truth I question if he is really ready for this and if he truly loves me. I would do anything for him, I do, do anything for him. Whatever he needs I am here for him. Another thing that also hurts me is when someone says they need time a lone especially when they dont even have time to spend it with you. Maybe I am not ready for this. What I want in my life is commitment and honesty. I am ready for this step I want to have the person in my life to be here forever and want the same for me. I truly have found my love, the love of my life. And i want to spend every moment I have with him. It just sucks that he doesnt want that. Maybe we arent on the same page. In two months I am suppose to be moving into my own apartment and "You" are suppose to live with me and start our grown up lives together. I know you are scared but so am I we just need to grow up and the best way is together. I still want this it just hurts that you dont want it the same way as me. Maybe you arent ready. Now I am cleaning this dirt whole i live in now, and packing for a vacation that is suppose to be amazing and to be honest I am not excited anymore. That upsets me. Well life is to short to tread on the waters of hate so I am going to move past this and hopefully i will be ok.
Band Choice right now is
A Day To Remember
Sorry for venting just upset.
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