today not good maybe tomorrow will be better

kind of sucks for me right now...
i woke up feeling like it could possibly been a great day....
and it was for about 30 minutes.

then kyle left and i went on the computer to do the daily surfing...
then my phone rings i was surprised thought it was dereke or someone from Orlando...

no

it was my brother and he was having another freaking panic attack. i guess he was with my mom and they came home and when they pulled in to the parking lot to my house. Jeremy my brother saw a sander and a can of paint on his car really its my dad's car who died and left it for him. And there was a scratch, sand, dust, and paint on the car. Jeremy flipped out yelled at Bob my step father and yeah it just went down hill from there. And in the middle of his flipping put he had time to call me and bother me with his problems. now i love him and would do anything for him but you cant do anything when he acts like this, you just have to let it go. I listened got a headache. Then my phone died and it wont charge because my phone SUCKS! I want to calm him down but now my phone wont stay on. UGH frustration now. Then i tried getting a hold of my mom and she wont pick up finally after 4 hours of trying to get a hold of her i finally do. And we talk its nice and then we talk about what happened she is blaming drugs on the reason why my brother is acting like this. I hate when she does that so i made a comment "yea blame it on the drugs" she said no i am not and i said "shhsp" she just then said whatever bye and hung up on me. What a jerk i havent done anything of course i shouldnt of said that but i did and you shouldnt hang up and then not answer my phone calls i am trying to solve the problem with my phone which she wont buy me a new one.

Then after that i got a phone call from justin which was weird he always calls when something wrong is going on. we talked for a bit but it was so awkward that we end it quickly.

Ugh i just am so frustrated and upset i cant stand it.
And all i wanted to do today was be lazy and have time with kyle and yet i didnt even get that.